Today as I was walking in this great weather we are having-I walked past the tennis club that I walk by daily. On days like this it is packed with players, as I was coming though the parking area three women came out, and my dog being the people lover she is (and believer that all people love her as well) padded up to them for a visit. All three of these women were over sixty, in tennis skirts and sleeveless shirts and have the physiques of twenty year olds or so. I was so impressed with how good they look, that I want to look that great as I age, no saggy skin, and a lot of ripped older woman muscle going on. It was impressive, you could just tell they took great pride in themselves and it was wonderful to see.
After all that impressiveness and walking, my hormonal surge jumped and my wonderful efforts lost on the 3 oatmeal cranberry walnut cookies. I have managed to squeeze in another walk, in hopes of buffering some of the sugar damage. I have decided I hate the hormonal cravings bad enough that I am going to see someone about it. All this hard work feels destroyed by cookies, I know that is not the case, but it feels like it. What will I do tomorrow or later tonight if they hit again? I don’t keep sweets in the house-AT ALL!
So then I have to drive somewhere to get them, and 99% of the time can talk myself out of it.
Although only half the week is over, it has been one of awareness and reflection. I saw a large woman that had to back herself into the driver’s seat of her car, I did feel bad for her, but also thought I don’t ever want that to be me. I have a friend that is very obese and says she is not sure how it happened, that it was progressive and a lot of bad choices-she now has trouble making it though the grocery store or Target. I just don’t ever want it to be a progressive thing with me, something I miss as the sizes go up and not down, someone who makes excuses to eat like crap, or excuses on why I am overweight. Laziness, pure and simple. Without judging (as I am in place to judge others bodies), some of the people I see like the woman trying to squeeze into her car make me more aware of what can happen if I don’t take care of myself daily and remain aware all the time.
People always say “it will never happen to me”, really you never know, it could! I would have never in my life thought I would see a day I need to lose fifty pounds or so, but it happened.
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Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Musings, Ramblings and Rants
A dreary Saturday with a dusting of snow that looks more like fairy dust, it seemed like the perfect morning to make a batch of chocolate butterscotch fudge, and that is just what I did. Now, it is my hopes that when it sets I can get it cut and get it out the door with only sampling a piece. The sugar cravings are still with me and I hoping making a sweet treat for my neighbors and friends will be enough to satisfy me for now.
It has been a week of struggling but I did manage to take my two pounds back off. What an evil cycle that is.
A friend asked me why I don’t have pictures of myself up on the blog. I like the end results, you get a lot of before and after pictures or progress pictures, I will post both of my before and after picture as well as statistics the end of my journey. In the next five months I hope to have dropped most of the 50 pounds I want to lose. I think that seems reasonable.
I have met some impressive people lately, in the fitness world anyway. One girl who shall remain nameless was into drinking and starting drugs, she wasn’t happy with her weight or herself. Someone introduced her to fitness modeling and it changed her life and her entire body. I don’t want to be muscled up, but when she is not in season as they call it, she looks trimmer with very little fat and so lean. I am very impressed with her results; it takes a lot of discipline and hard work, not six hours a day like on BL, but a daily routine that she will only stray from on the holidays. She doesn’t drink or do drugs, she now goes around and mentors at young adult treatment centers, and is proud of her success, as she should be. I love transformation and the stories behind them.
This last week a friend of mine went in for gastric bypass, I am not for it personally, but think it can save lives. My friend didn’t need the surgery, she was not 100 pounds over weight nor did she have the BMI number to qualify. What she did have is a medical degree, and that was enough. I am disturbed that she was able to bypass all the mental exams and requirements that a person needing the surgery would have to go though, just because of her degree. I hope it works out well for her, but she could have done it with out re-routing her body or using her education to her advantage. And people wonder why the medical community isn’t trustworthy, hmmm.
I met another girl who lost one hundred pounds all by herself-no medical help, pills or crazy tricks, just eating better and wanting to love herself and her body, sick of the years of yo-yo dieting and the trauma it causes as well as the shame. She works out 4 times a week and does cardio daily, in the form of a 40 minute power walk, jogging or the elliptical. She doesn’t have all the extra skin you'd think someone losing that much weight would have, she firmed herself up good and looks great. I like collecting tips from the “successfuls” as I call them and she provided me with some great ideas, DVD’s and will be emailing me recipes soon, too. I asked where she got the will power to keep trucking though; even when she’d have setbacks and bad days-she replied “the other option is just not appealing”. Makes sense to me, since I always say “Consider the alternative”.
It has been a week of struggling but I did manage to take my two pounds back off. What an evil cycle that is.
A friend asked me why I don’t have pictures of myself up on the blog. I like the end results, you get a lot of before and after pictures or progress pictures, I will post both of my before and after picture as well as statistics the end of my journey. In the next five months I hope to have dropped most of the 50 pounds I want to lose. I think that seems reasonable.
I have met some impressive people lately, in the fitness world anyway. One girl who shall remain nameless was into drinking and starting drugs, she wasn’t happy with her weight or herself. Someone introduced her to fitness modeling and it changed her life and her entire body. I don’t want to be muscled up, but when she is not in season as they call it, she looks trimmer with very little fat and so lean. I am very impressed with her results; it takes a lot of discipline and hard work, not six hours a day like on BL, but a daily routine that she will only stray from on the holidays. She doesn’t drink or do drugs, she now goes around and mentors at young adult treatment centers, and is proud of her success, as she should be. I love transformation and the stories behind them.
This last week a friend of mine went in for gastric bypass, I am not for it personally, but think it can save lives. My friend didn’t need the surgery, she was not 100 pounds over weight nor did she have the BMI number to qualify. What she did have is a medical degree, and that was enough. I am disturbed that she was able to bypass all the mental exams and requirements that a person needing the surgery would have to go though, just because of her degree. I hope it works out well for her, but she could have done it with out re-routing her body or using her education to her advantage. And people wonder why the medical community isn’t trustworthy, hmmm.
I met another girl who lost one hundred pounds all by herself-no medical help, pills or crazy tricks, just eating better and wanting to love herself and her body, sick of the years of yo-yo dieting and the trauma it causes as well as the shame. She works out 4 times a week and does cardio daily, in the form of a 40 minute power walk, jogging or the elliptical. She doesn’t have all the extra skin you'd think someone losing that much weight would have, she firmed herself up good and looks great. I like collecting tips from the “successfuls” as I call them and she provided me with some great ideas, DVD’s and will be emailing me recipes soon, too. I asked where she got the will power to keep trucking though; even when she’d have setbacks and bad days-she replied “the other option is just not appealing”. Makes sense to me, since I always say “Consider the alternative”.
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